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I can't believe it has come round so quick, where have the last 6 years gone?
I suppose I slept thru the first few, but even so time seems to have just gone so quick.
Have I learnt anything in this time?
YES I have learnt loads about ME/CFS/PVFS, the benefits system, my doctor’s surgery, different types of medication, vitamins & others supplements along with many other things.
Have any of these helped me to recover?
Some have and some things haven't, but so far none has got me back to 100%, will I ever get there? Only time will tell...
The worst thing is that this illness takes your confidence and self belief, and then when you start to get better you get scared to do stuff and set yourself back, as has happened so many times before.
Everybody takes things for granted, that is until they lose the ability to do something that is not even thought about.
Can you brush your teeth, wash your own hair, change your bed, walk for 20 minutes gently without pain, wash up, cook a meal, read a book, follow a conversation, empty the washing machine, you know stuff you do automatically without thinking.
There have been times when I haven't been able to do all of the above, and times when I could only do some of it, times I don't remember much at all, and times I wish I could forget. They say that our past makes us who we are, I'm not sure how the past 6 years have left their mark on me & I'm not sure if I want to know.
I know I have been used, I have found some true friends and some not so good ones. I realise that money isn't everything but it can sure make life easier, yet too much money can cause stress and problems. Sometimes having nothing is better that not having quite enough. Having the right doctor is vital as is cutting out as much stress from your life as you can.
Life is for living and having fun, always make time for good friends and fun everything else can wait. Make home life as simple as possible then keeping it tidy is simple. Delegate and make lists, lists are invaluable they help to break a job down into small manageable tasks that are easier to do or delegate to others.
The biggest thing I have found is to share, but not so much as to give all of yourself away. You see at one time the internet was my life, I spent way to much energy on here trying to keep up with everything, but now I have drawn my focus closer to home it has helped, I just need to get the balance right and all will be good in the world of me.....
My only question I have left is: 'has it gone past 12 noon, can someone stop playing this April fools joke on me now?'