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I've been so up and down this past month it's been unreal.
I start to feel good then think I shouldn't be wasting my health or time by sitting around and bang I've done way too much and wiped myself out again.
I started to think I had got my fitness back but I forgot about the fact that I am still not 100%, when I use up my energy I take longer to recover than most, so I fall backwards with every large step I take.
I have come so far, and I sometimes forget just how far I have come, just how much I couldn't do before and how ill I really was, something I didn't see at the time it's only by getting some of my health back I can see it now.
I was round a friends talking to her daughter and she left us to chat and got on with the tasks she needed to get done, when I joined her she apologised for not being able to spend her time standing around, this phrase comes back to me when I find myself home with so much to do, then I find myself sleeping at lunch time because I have done so much over the past few days I feel completely washed out.
So now its a few good days and a week of being washed out!
I need to stop doing this to myself, time to start planning my days again, and stop doing the stuff that is causing me to go backwards.