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I just seem to be going round in circles and getting nowhere, or that is how it feels at least.
This ear infection isn't getting any better and now the pain killers don't work so well, sleep is harder to come by due to pain, and it is getting me down.
I think life is getting me down, I just don't seem to get done what I want to and things are just stacking up behind me, the trouble is no one else seems to care.
I really think I'm getting to a point where I'm so used to doing nothing that my body doesn't want me to do anything now I can do more.
You know what I mean, it's like where if all you do is sit in front of the TV then that is all you want to do.
The problem is I want to do more but I don't think my mind really agrees, you see if I'm able to do it all I feel that everything will be left to me to do, then if or when I get back to work I will still have all the housework to do as well, and that is where I feel it will all become too much for me and I will fail.
I don't want to fail.....
I have felt like a big enough failure over the past five years I don't want repeat it all over again, who would?
My life is still full of if's and maybe's and I don't want that I want to be a more positive person, with healthy self esteem, I'm fed up of being a victim, I want to be a survivor in this world, I want to achieve things, I don't want to carry on the way I am.
Well there is no time like the present.... So time to take stock and re-evaluate my priorities in this world and where they lie.
I'll let you know if I manage it!!!