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In the last 7 years I have lost my Grandma, my Granddad, my Dad & my Father-in-law.
Now for me that's a lot of close family in a short time, yet the one who still upsets me the most is losing my Grandma. I suppose it's because she was taken from us before her time, you see due to a mix up she was given a drug during a hip replacement that she was allergic to and we can not be sure if this did or did not cause her to pass away less than a week later, but it felt like it was just too soon.
We were told that she wouldn’t have lived much longer, maybe only another six months, but the human body surprises us and the medical world all the time so who really knows how long she would have had?
I'm just glad she never saw me ill and neither did my Granddad.
Granddad passed away nine months after Grandma, yet for him it was expected, we had been told he only had so long left so we were thankful for every day.
Regular readers of my diary will remember my Dad passing away and how I coped or didn't at the time. There were other things to deal with for me with regards to my dad so it was never going to be straight forward when he went, and even now he's passing isn't the one that affects me the most.
As for my Father-in-law, that is a strange one for me as I can't say I'm totally sad he has gone, but I'm not happy about it either! You see he suffered for years and by the end he wasn't able to do much of anything & I know he hated living like that, so for him it was more of a happy release from a world of pain and suffering. I couldn't wish for him to be back for one second of that life.
So out of all the above my Grandma was the only one who really had a life to live for when she passed and that makes me sad, sad she missed out on the benefits of the surgery she had. I miss her the most.... But it does get better if you let it, it just takes time.
So my dearest friend, just take time and know I'm here, if you need me ever...