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The stress caused by my dad's affairs has caused a down turn in my health & I hate it.
I was so enjoying an up turn in my health even if I wasn't going up very far or any further, at all, it was just nice to have the slightly better spell.
Hubby did his biggest race meeting of the year last weekend (Saturday 4th Nov) and he managed to come 9th in his first race and 3rd in his second race.
This is the highest he has ever finished in a race, and it was a huge meeting with 40+ cars on the track for each race.
The worst of it was all the drivers seem to have taken a crazy pill, it was manic on track that night, and everyone was out for some real smashing fun in every sense of the word.
Hubby is so happy and I'm so numb/down, it's just not fair!!!
Daughter has finally got her braces after four years plus of waiting, I just wish they didn't hurt her so much, I do feel guilty about her needing them; I wish she had been born with all her adult teeth there, and not with two missing.
I know there is nothing I could have done to stop it from happening, it's just one of those things; but it still doesn't stop the guilty feelings.
I wish I could wrap my little girl up in cotton wool and protect her from all the hurt in the world, but as she is 17 now I think she would hit me for trying, or at least tell me to get lost.
Seeing your own child in pain is one of the worst things in the world.
OK I must pull myself together and stop being silly, she is fine and this is going to be on going treatment for the next 12-18 months, so I need to get a grip of reality and let daughter come to me as and when she needs me and not push her at all.
Letting them go is so hard, and she isn't going anywhere yet!!!!