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Tuesday was a really dull grey wet day and me well I slept thru most of it.
Yesterday wasn't much better even thou the sun did come out, I started to re-wire hubby trailer, he's going to need it on Saturday to take his banger race car to the track.
He's doing a Sleepydust Car for me, and I also think it's his way of saying thanks to Sleepydust for all her help with the fab website she has created, and talking me into doing this diary.
I have something to foucus on now, and I love to help people so by being a moderator on the Sleepydust discussion board I can help people, I can help Sleepydust & Sometrouble look after the board, and I can also give advice and help to other sufferers.
I did sit and think 'What help can I be, I don't know half the things the others do, I've not had this illness long compared to others. So how can I even start to think I have any authority over this illness or any info that others won't have?'
Then I started to look back at how frightened and scared I was when I first figured out that this Post Viral Fatigue Syndrome the doctor was talking about was better known by many people as M.E.
I was so scared I didn't want to believe that they were the same thing. My friends sister has had this for years, and by that I mean as long as I've known her which is around 10 years. It wasn't as if she had only just got it then, she had been ill for some time before we were friends.
So what has changed I hear you ask, well I have looked at lots of different places on the web, I have gained a mountain of information about this illness, I've probably forgotten more about this illness than most people will ever know.
Thats the short term memory loss for you lmbo.
So I looked at how the info I gained helped me, and how much of it was not important to me.
I didn't really need to know about cases of this illness going back decades from all over the world, and what it may or maynot be caused by.
These where things I couldn't change or do anything about.
But the info I had gained on how to help myself, how to think positive and how to look forward at maybe being one of the lucky ones who can get a normal life back, go on holidays and get back to my study and work again.
Ok some of that is just maybe's but you never know and what is life without hope. Dull and boring thats what.
So I'm going to enjoy the sun while it's out (even if it is cold outside) and look forward to helping all those I can come to terms with this illness and find a way forward.
Here's to tomorrow and what ever it may bring.